Piang.

Life, it is human nature to develop relationships with others and experience life with a partner. Some settled down, got married, and have children. That one interesting part of all of these situations, is the journey to get to that one point or person. 

And that journey, consists of love and heartbreaks .

Heartbreaks from rejection, self infliction, hurting from the unknown, and death.

The first exhibit, is when the one you love dearly is reckless with your own heart. They break it and shatter in ways you never thought they could. 

Pernah kan, bila kau rasa dia itu nyawa kau, kau rasa dia lah yang paling tahu baik buruk kau, all those quirks that they seem to accept who you really are and love you unconditionally. The thing is, we can never really tell if that particular person won't hurt us sooner or later. It's true what they say, semua orang dalam dunia ni akan lukakan kita. Cara sahaja yang berbeza. Dan setiap parut dari luka itu,membentuk kita. Walaupun kau sayang dia macam bagai nak rak pun, at one point kau akan rasa terluka dengan certain things. Antara kau masih nak teruskan, atau kau tak mampu untuk teruskan because they already left you behind.

The second exhibit, when you break someone's heart.

Deal with it, in this life, someone will always bound to hurt another person. It's a cycle. Ada masa kita nak orang tu, orang tu nak yang lain, dan yang lain tu nak yang lagi lain. Akan ada yang terluka. Lumrah kehidupan. Tak semua benda yang kau mahu itu kau mampu capai. Ada limitnya, sebab ada masa benda yang kau nak tu benda yang kau tak patut ada dalam hidup pun. Same goes to this. Sometimes, orang yang sepatutnya kita tak patut lukakan itu yang kita lukakan. Yang mampu ada dengan kita, yang faham kita sepenuhnya, yang ada masa kita jadikan dia rebound bila kita sedih, tapi hakikatnya kita pilih jalan untuk hidup dengan yang lain. Dan dia, akan terluka. Yang pedihnya mungkin kau sendiri ingat kau tahu, tapi sebenarnya kau tak. Hati masing masing, rasa masing masing kau tahu?

Exhibit three, the kind of heartbreak that comes along when you have to watch the person you love entirely is happy with someone else.

Benda yang paling sakit, bila tengok orang yang kita masih sayang dalam diam, gembira dengan orang lain yang bukan diri engkau. Pernah kan, kau rasa macam tu? I once read, that ada masa kita lagak macam kita okay, kita boleh move on slowly dengan dia tak ada di sisi. But, there's a but, it's okay as long as they're still single. 

Am I right ?

Bila dalam diam kau stalk atau kau dapat tahu dia dah move on dengan yang lain, mula lah kau rasa insecure, kau rasa kenapa bukan kau yang move on dulu, and maybe, just maybe, kenapa bukan kau yang ada di sisi dia. I know, being replaced sucks. It hurts to the core, and I can't stand the pain of being replaced by someone I love the most. But time flies, god gave what I deserve. If we're not meant to be together, we will never be. Semuanya dah tercatit, kita hidup je dalam dunia ni ambil pengajaran dunia dari sesiapa yang singgah dalam hidup kita.

The thing about love is, it's always subjective. it can be anything. Everyone have their own definition when it comes to being in love. But sometimes, there are steps we took that are bound to lead us to a massive heartbreak. 

But chin up, stay strong.

Setiap yang luka itu pengajaran, setiap yang gembira itu kebahagiaan.

Kalau tak kenal derita, mana nak hargai erti bahagia. Tak macam itu ?

Selamat menjalani heartbreak kesayangan, dan bangkit kembali.

The one.

Have you ever fall in love so deeply, even if things went wrong and everything falls apart, but you know you'll end up loving that same person over and over again ?

It's like even if you're trying your hardest to let it go and move on with someone else, but you just can't. Not because you don't want to, but you yourself know what your heart wants most.

Maybe it's not the first love that puts you through this, to always 'wanting' that person above any other person you've met.

Maybe,

It's just someone. That to some other person he is just a chapter, but to you yourself, he is the whole book. The new beginning, or even the end. In any other way, you still can't get your mind trying to neglect them in any possible way.

'Everyone have their own reasons why they love someone the way they are.'

Anything,

Anything at all that makes you think..

Yes, it may be the most cliche thing to say,

But, he's "the one".

It's like whatever you've tried to let go or simply move on with someone else, when they're around, there's no one in this whole wide world that you want except them.

Hati manusia berbeza.

Jatuh merana, bangun dengan tawa. Apa yang hati nak, kau tetap susah nak kaburkan.

Sebab bila makin kau deny dan kata ini bukan apa yang kau perlukan dan yang kau nak, makin jelas dari setiap sudut yang that is what you really want.

And they're just, the one.

Even if things have changed, and people fade away, and everything went upside down.

They're still your one and only.

Arjuna.

Maafkan dan tinggalkan.

Knowing when is the time to walk away.

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" Jangan pilih orang yang kita terlalu sayang, pilih orang yang terlalu menyayangi kita." 

Memories.

There's one thing you ought to know,

It doesn't mean if I miss someone, I miss our memories, I desperately want them back in my life.

I moved on, but I won't lie to myself if there are times my brain won't digest the fact that some things shall be forgotten. That's who I am, I don't forget things that puts me through so much pain, I kept forgetting them on and on. Because the more I force myself to forget about it, the more I felt it hits me to the core.

And, it doesn't mean if I remembered all the pain and heartache I've been through I'm gathering all the heartache and revenge all over my veins. No.

It's just something I remember, of what I had in the past.

Nothing more, nothing less.

But mostly, not wanting anything back.

Please don't underestimate the way I miss things.

Maybe you can just accept the fact that I don't forget things, and I'll accept the fact that some people walk away.